Happy to be here and be part of this online community.
My name is Shevy, I'm 33 years old, from the UK.
So...my relationship with art...
I was fairly decent at drawing when I was in school, particularly figure drawing. However, being a stroppy teenager, I never took the 'requirements' of my school's art program seriously. I didn't want to research artists and do the same sketch over and over again - I would just go straight to the final piece. I really regret this now!
Anyway, after school, I didn't really draw or paint or do any form of art (well, I did play piano for a while, but that was unfulfilling).
It was only around four years ago that I started drawing again. I had a very serious health episode which resulted in a diagnosis of a 'lifelong' illness. Thank God, I am feeling better now, but life is not easy. Why is this relevant? After I came back from hospital, during the recovery period, I went to therapy for PTSD. When I was lying in bed in pain, and my mind was awake, I started doodling cartoons to make fun of what I imagined was going on in my body. I personified my organs. When I showed these to my therapist, she was thrilled. She thought they were hilarious and encouraged me to keep drawing. Eventually, I got so many compliments on my drawings that I decided to do more of it, and I found it tremendously fulfilling and enjoyable. As an adult, who has been through a lot, I now see the value of patience and drawing and painting for its own sake.
For a while, I was drawing and painting a lot of 'fan art' (Lord of the Rings, Avatar, Harry Potter, etc.) in ink and watercolour, and I tried my hand at an oil painting too...
Now I'm pregnant with my second child, and I feel like my creativity has DIED. I have NO desire to draw or paint at all, and I haven't for a few months now. This makes me so sad. I can't force myself to do it. Every now and then I do some 'art journaling' (random scribbles and patterns in my sketchbook) but my oil painting lies unfinished in a carry case, my big list of goals remains barely touched, I look at my easel gathering dust, and it's very depressing...
I think the COVID lockdown also has something to do with this. I haven't been able to go out to any local art classes or art clubs. I didn't realise how much I was encouraged by drawing and painting with other people.
And I know in my brain that drawing and painting would probably help me cope with lockdown and pregnancy craziness, but my emotions don't seem to let.
I know, I know, I must be kind to myself, and pregnancy won't be forever, and COVID lockdown won't be forever...but what if my creativity is dead forever? How can I help myself get back into drawing and painting? I feel so uninspired and down.
Any other artists experience such a long downtime??
I come from the digital corner of this Artists Forum but I also love
analog drawing / painting and art in general. I live in Germany in a
city next to Frankfurt and I wanted to send you a few words of
encouragement over the canal.
I learned some English myself and let the Deepl Translator help me,
so forgive me strange phrases. I hope the message gets across
My art lessons at school were similar to yours, I couldn't get used to
the strange routines there either. But I don't regret my behavior of
that time. Because I found it right afterwards. The Standard School
is not really a place for creative self-realization. Even though many
things have improved. The only thing I am grateful for is that I can
read and write.
Because you wrote about your health problems. Have a look at pictures of
Frida Kahlo, a famous Mexican artist. She began to paint because she had
to lie in bed for a long time due to an accident. There is a film biography on
DVD about her life called "Frida" which is worth seeing. Yes, painting and
drawing can be a way to get to know yourself better, that's basically what
I like most about it. That's why I find Japanese ink painting so interesting
and Japanese art in general because everything is ultimately a way to the
deeper inner self.
Because of creativity
I also know long times when there is not so much creative activity. Of course
I find them often frustrating and annoying, but in the end you have to deal
with it somehow. So, I'm not in a bad mood about that for long. Then, it just
has to go on like this for a while.
So I don't think creativity can die. It may feel lifeless for a while, but in reality
it is refueling. For me, Creativity is the light-footed high-spirited sister of love
and sometimes she needs a breather / recovery phase before she starts dancing
again. Even if time seems long to you, give it to it. You can help her to recharge
her batteries a little. She likes nature, movement, inspiration and everything you
do with love. What she doesn't like so much is pressure. ( although, she would
probably deal with it creatively again ;-) )
So, don't put yourself under pressure, relax as you feel comfortable, go for a walk
in the nature, or do something in the garden. Give your energy something to do
with sports or dancing. Just let your expectations go for a while and in this time
your source can replenish itself. In the meantime you can scribble something
without a plan or goal if you like. Or just collect inspiration.
A lot of creativity seems to be connected to a kind of flow, but this flow cannot be
created on purpose. A good book about this is "Zen in the Art of Archery", from
Eugen Herrigel, even if it is not so easy to understand. This flow is often interrupted
by our expectations, concepts, ideas and wishes. There is a lot of literature about
creativity, have a look around, maybe you will find something for you.
Search on Youtube for " Intuitive Painting / Drawing " you may also get some Ideas.
Finally some inspiration, i like this Artist "Mateusz Urbanowicz " its a Aquarell Painter
from Poland know lives in Japan.
Hier a Link:
What about going back to cartooning? Your idea about personification of your organs sounds original and seemed to get a good response from people. I find that going for a short walk before getting to work on painting is helpful.